Season 2: Episode V

Let’s get back to 18^th July!

It was really getting complicated. Was it? Clearly, I liked Mihir. But now, I wasn’t sure whether he still liked me or not.

With all the confusion, or whatever that was, Mihir’s story and my story had combined chapters again and again. During the winter holidays, during his visits to Pune, completely unexpected encounter at technical festival of PICT, and lots of other incidents. All those encounters… They used to make me crazy. Trying to keep calm, hiding surge of emotions, controlling my heartbeat, stopping my eyes from chasing him… It was a torture. Everytime he came, he brought all the emotions with him that my heart wanted to avoid desperately.

Sometimes, it was just so difficult to face him. At moments, I could not help my heart at all. He came to my college once, giving a stupid reason that he was there to pick up Adi. Whom was he kidding? Was there a chauffeur for Adi to pick him up everyday, who took a leave for the day? And if so, then why did he tell me thrice that he’ll be coming?

But, calendar moves on. And then came the Valentine’s Day. Tinntinn! Tinntinn! ‘1 message received’. Obviously Mihir’s. What’s coming with this message now? Another storm? Another ‘maybe he does, maybe he does not’? Another ‘is it possible’? Another duel of mind and heart? Can’t wait anymore. Let’s clear it out.

Ouch! With every line my heart was beating so hard that I felt it’ll explode. The message! A simple and very sweet rhyme… Did he write it for me? It was about Valentine’s Day, describing the beauty of a rose and friendship (that we shared?), Reminding me of Kuch Kuch Hota Hai - ‘Pyaar dosti hai.’ His words made me understand the heart of this movie in an instant.

And at the end of that rhyme a small note pouring out his heart… ‘A rose for this beautiful rose……’ Yet, he did not complete the sentence mentioning what he should have.

But, surely, surely he likes me! He still likes me! That message was a clear sign spilling his heart out.

Now what? I know it. But now what? What should I do? Nothing! The truth was, I was afraid to fall in a relationship again. What if I am cheating myself again? What if I’m making a wrong choice again? ‘What if’... This question became a part of my life, always making things worse for me.

And now, throwing this ‘what if’ out of my life, after a summer of little avoiding each other and some encounters, suddenly, that was it. Finally, everything was clear in front of my eyes. No more secrets and everything, crystal clear.

TO BE CONTINUED . . .